One of my favorite parts of writing the series has been writing the flashbacks. Most especially, Bill and Julie. They are the only couple to be introduced already together, and exploring their history has been fun and eye opening. I know how difficult it is and has been with what you just read, but Julie and Bill’s story is one that means everything to me. Here is a very moving moment that was shown in book 3. Please grab a jelly donut and enjoy 🙂
“I came as soon as I could, where are you?” Bill called to Julie as he ran into her apartment. She had left him a cryptic message that something was wrong and he was unable to get a hold of her by phone. Tommy was in surgery and Bill was in a full panic. He ran through the apartment and found her on the floor of her room.
“Julie, oh my God, what happened?” He felt tears prick his eyes as he ran to her side. He reached for her.
“No, don’t come near, oh my God,” She put her head in a garbage bag and vomited. “I think I am dying.”
He was confused. “Are you sick?”
She shot him a look. “You’re brilliant.”
He stood up, his arms crossed. “I thought something was terribly wrong with you.”
Again she glared. “My stomach hurts and I can’t move. I think I had some bad food.” She felt her eyes fill with tears.
“You scared the crap out of me,” he said. “I thought someone attacked you.”
She laid in a fetal position on the floor and sighed. “I am sorry to disappoint you, just food poisoning. Oh God,” she said and heaved again.
He stood there, not knowing what to do.
She thought her insides must have come out. She expected to see her stomach actually out of her body. All she saw was him standing there, like a big giant pair of eyes. “Go away, I got this.”
He knelt down next to her. “I’m sorry you’re sick, do you want me to get you something?”
“No. Go away, I don’t need you staring at me.” She felt tears fall down her face.
“I’m not going anywhere.” Bill said.
She looked at him. “Then I am leaving.” She slowly got up, no color to her face at all and sat on the bed.
“You can’t leave. You can’t even move,” he said.
“You can’t tell me what I can and can’t do. I am going, now.” She stood up and he saw her falter before she passed out completely. He caught her and put her on the bed. He decided she needed to go the emergency room, so he grabbed her sweater and put it on before picking her up in his arms and carrying her to his car.
She woke up as they were driving and moaned. “Are you going to be sick? Should I pull over? Don’t puke in my car.” Bill said, speeding down the road.
She once again glared at him. “You care about your car more than me.”
He was at his wits end. “That’s not true. I love you.”
She closed her eyes. “Don’t talk to me, I don’t feel well.”
He rolled his eyes and pulled up to the E.R. He got out and walked to pick her up. “I can walk, I am not an invalid.” She said and stood up. “Maybe you can help me,” she said as she passed out again.
Bill carried her into the E.R. and they put her on a gurney before taking her back. He stood in the waiting room, replaying the events that just happened. He suddenly got worried. What if it was something more than food poisoning? He sat down and put his head in his hands. He called Tommy again and left a message that they were at the hospital. He wiped his palms on his pants. What if something was seriously wrong?
“Mr. Kastan?” The nurse called out. Bill walked to the desk. “I’m Mr. Kastan, is my fiancé okay?”
The nurse smiled at him. “Follow me, you can sit with her.”
He nodded and walked with her to a curtained area. She pulled the curtain and he saw her in the bed, an IV in her arm and her eyes closed. “Jules? Oh God, are you okay?” He sat down and touched her face.
She opened her green eyes and looked at him, her tears falling. “I’m okay, I feel better.” She looked anything but.
He sat down and took her face in his hands. “What aren’t you telling me?” She began to sob and he pulled her to him and held her. “Baby what’s wrong?”
She sat back and looked at him. “I had a miscarriage.”
He was stunned. “What? You were pregnant?”
She shrugged. “I didn’t even know. I’m so sorry, Bill. I don’t know what happened.” She put her head in her hands and cried.
He felt his eyes fill with tears and he pulled her to him again, holding her and rubbing her back. “I’m so sorry, Jules.”
She looked at him. “I thought I had food poisoning. Maybe if I had gone to the hospital right away,” she began.
He shook his head. “Don’t even go there. This is not your fault.” He ran his hand through her hair. They had talked about having children and they both wanted them, and even though this wasn’t planned, he felt a loss.
She took his hand in hers and held it to her heart. “I’m sorry I was so mean to you. I felt like shit.”
He smiled. “I can take it.” He looked at her. “Move over.”
She did and he climbed into the tiny bed. She felt like despite the sadness, her heart was full of love. He pulled her to him and held her. “You are destined to be a mother my love. We will be blessed again. I am truly sorry for this loss.” He felt his eyes fill.
“You are meant to be a dad. We will make it; I know it. I love you.” She said and they both lay there, lost in their sadness, but completely in love.