David and ?

*****This post contains spoilers from “The Hardest Goodbye”*****

David and Bee, Bee and David.

I had big plans for them. I wrote them together their whole lives and I loved the push and pull it gave Jack and Bill as the kids grew up.

But as I began to advance the series and have the kids grow up, I began to see their lives changing. I had a few specifics that were important. I wanted them to date. I wanted their first real kiss to be with each other. I wanted David to have to face Jack to take Bee on a date.

But then what?

Happily ever after?

Not likely.

I wanted their relationship to be real and true to who they were, but I also began to see something else, a new side to their story.

Life isn’t perfect. We all know that. We might want certain things to happen and they simply don’t work out.

It would be too predictable for David and Bee to grow up, fall in love, and get married.

I don’t like predictable. I like excitement. I like drama. I like passion.

I also saw something in Sabrina and David that just didn’t click.

I had an idea, but a few things needed to happen first.

I needed David to get his heart broken.

I needed David to be blindsided by Bee’s breakup.

I needed him to question everything he knew to be true.

I needed him to be at a low point in his young life.

I needed him to grow.

Cue Desi.

Desi is different from all of the kids I’ve written. She reminds me of the students I have who exist in the background. She is an observer, a brilliant mind who people don’t take the time to notice. She is kind and compassionate and wise beyond her years.

She is sort of an older Courtney, if she had lived.

Desi had a few secrets that were quite important, but I wanted people to find them out in different ways. I wanted people guessing.

Who was she?

What was her purpose?

What was her connection?

Was she good or bad?

I also mirrored her meeting David in a similar fashion to how Tommy met Brittany.

David is a character I have always felt was underdeveloped. Maybe it was because he was the only boy, or maybe because I immediately put him with Bee, I just didn’t know who he was on his own.

I also hadn’t done a very good job of telling my readers about him.

He played hockey. He is a goalie. He’s annoyed by Josie. He has a good friend named Katie.

That was all I had really revealed and I had so much more in mind for him.

With Desi, I was able to show more sides to David because she was learning them, too.

I was specifically vague about Desi at first because I wasn’t sure how she and David would click.

I liked having most of the rest of the kids know Desi and I decided to have Julie know her as well. I always knew there would be a military connection because I have been wanting to beef up that side of the canvas. I also wanted it to be a woman, Desi’s mother this time.

That brings me to Ian.

I have been wanting to write a veterinarian for a long time and I thought a large animal vet would bring a new spin to things. It was also the perfect way to connect Ian and Desi to the rest of the family. The farm was already there and having Ian work there would be a great excuse for Desi to be there and for David to meet her.

Ian’s back story will continue to come out in the next book and I hope you are enjoying him so far.

Giving Desi cancer was another calculated risk. Not only was I introducing a new character, but I was putting her in a position where I needed people to care about what happened to her.

It also allowed me to connect her to Tommy and by extension, Brittany.

This will be important moving forward.

David and Desi are discovering something pretty wonderful. They are both reeling from Katie’s suicide attempt and David is at a loss for how he lived his live without, as Desi put it, paying attention to anything around him.

He is smitten. He is excited. He is completely out of his comfort zone and it’s the best feeling in the world.

Until the dance.

Everything is about to change.

Are you ready?


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The Yearlings

Are you ready to learn more about Desi and Ian?



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A fun twist…

I rewrote the beginning of “Nothing Matters” to introduce new readers to Jack and Tommy. It’s a fun little mystery twist that is online in anticipation of the Rust City Book Convention which I will be appearing  at in August. Click on the image below to go to the site and read my little story.


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Mike and Jade Stein

“Okay, so this is supposed to be fun, but I guess that depends on our answers,” Jade said as she walked to the bed to sit with Mike who was waiting for her.

“You look sexy,” he said as she sat down in her nightgown.

“Stop that,” she grinned. “It’s just a nightgown.”

He shrugged.

“I’m not apologizing. I think you’re sexy.”

She blushed.

“Well I like your outfit, too.”

“But I’m not wearing anything but shorts.”

Jade smiled.


He laughed and she looked at the pile of cards.

“Okay, so we ask and answer. Sounds pretty simple.”

“Got it. Ladies first,” Mike said and ate a strawberry from the bowl of fruit Jade brought.”

Jade took a card and looked at him.

“Okay, what is your idea of a perfect date?”

Mike grinned.

“Anything I do with you.”

Jade rolled her eyes.

“What? It’s the truth,” Mike said and took a card.

“What is the difference between sexuality and sensuality?”

Jade was quiet for a minute.

“Well, I think sexuality is very clinical. You know, the nuts and bolts of everything.”

“Nuts?” Mike grinned.

“Shush,” she laughed. “Sensuality is a touch, a feeling, a sensation. It’s what makes my body come alive when you look at me. It’s everything.”

Mike swallowed.

“Your turn,” Jade said.

“Huh? Oh, right.”

“Do you believe in public displays of affection?”

Jade nodded.

“I think I do, but within reason. Some things should be kept private.”

She picked a card.

“What first attracted you to me?”

Mike smiled at her.

“Your beauty.”

“That’s not true,” Jade said. “I’m not beautiful and you weren’t even looking like that at me.”

Mike reached to her hand and held it.

“First of all, you are gorgeous and no matter what state I was in, I saw that. But I also meant how you cared about me when there was absolutely nothing to like. I was the lowest I had ever been and you saw something in me that made me want to live. Your beauty simply made my life worth living.”

She leaned in and kissed him.

“That’s what sensuality is,” she whispered.

He grinned and took a card.

“This isn’t a good one.”

She raised her eyebrows.

“What is it? It’s okay, whatever it says.”

He sighed.

“Are you currently comfortable with your body? If not, what would you change to
make yourself more comfortable?”

She smiled at him.

“If you had asked me this a while ago, I would have said I wasn’t comfortable at all. But Mike, you have made me love my body. Our children have made me love my body. Life and all we’ve lived through has made me love my body. I still don’t like to walk around with a lot showing, but when I see myself through your eyes, I’m happy. The only thing I would change is my boob size. I would make them smaller.”

Mike looked horrified.

“You don’t have to carry them around all the time. It’s exhausting,” she said and laughed.

“My turn,” she picked a card. “Oh, I don’t know,” she sighed.

He shook his head.

“Nope, you said it. Anything goes.”

“Okay. Do you believe there is one right person for you out there in the world or that
there can be many different potential mates that you could live blissfully with?”

Mike didn’t hesitate.

“Just one. I have one soul mate and it may have taken me longer, but I found her.”

She smiled and he picked a card.

“What were you thinking about right before I kissed you for the first time?”

Jade thought about it.

“I was in shock. I never thought anyone would ever look at me like you did right before that and I remember never wanting your mouth to leave mine. It was the most amazing moment.”

He smiled and she took a card.

“This one has two parts. First part is do you like it when I initiate sex?”

Mike nodded.

“Of course. Sex at any time in any way is amazing. What’s the next part?”

She blushed.

“Would you like me … louder, quieter, more aggressive?”

He leaned his cheek on his hand.

“I never thought about it. I just like to know that you’re enjoying what I’m doing. I would want to know if there was something I could do better.”

“You’re perfect,” she said. “I love making love with you.”

“You’re turn,” she said.

“What is your favorite sexual position – and why?”

“I love when you’re on top of me. I love to feel your weight on me and the way you hold me is one of my favorite things.”

He swallowed and nodded.

“Your turn.”

She picked up a card.

“What parts of your body are the most sensitive to my touch?”

He thought about it.

“Aside from the obvious?”

She shrugged.

“What’s obvious?”

He laughed.

“You’re going to make me say it?”

She moved closer to him.


He ran his fingers over her shoulder and down her arms.

“The way you touch my ears really turns me on.”

She sat back and he laughed.

“Come on, it was funny,” he said.

She moved the cards and looked into his eyes.

“How about we do more touching and less talking.”

You don’t have to tell me twice,” he said and pulled her to him.

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Mike and Jade

Coming tonight! Mike and Jade interview each other 🙂

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Happy 4th of July!

So, how is the reading going? Are you enjoying The Hardest Goodbye? What do you think of the new characters?

Also- do you want any more interviews?

Happy 4th of July!

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Tommy and Brittany

Tommy put down the deck of cards and smiled as Brittany handed him a beer.

“Okay, so I promised we would answer the questions and be truthful. Jack and Stephanie and Bill and Julie had the interviewer in the room, but since it’s our anniversary, and you know how we value our privacy, I thought we should do this alone.”

Brittany grinned and took a sip of her wine.

“I’m ready. Are you nervous?”

Tommy chuckled.

“Nope. Now the cards each have a question on them so we pick and ask. Then you get naked.”

She looked at him.

“Okay, so I added that part.”

“Well, let’s see how it goes and you never know,” she grinned.

“This is going to be amazing.”

She laughed.

“You go first.”

Tommy picked the first card and smiled.

“What was your first impression of me?”

Brittany laughed.

“I thought you were an arrogant ass. I thought you were a jerk.”

“Nice,” he grinned. “It has more. How accurate do you now think it was? On which counts do you think you were totally wrong and on which were you right?”

She was quiet for a minute.

“Well, you can be arrogant, but that’s because you’re usually right. At least medically speaking. You aren’t an ass at all. I think overall, my assessment was a work in progress.”

He rolled his eyes and she grinned as she picked a card.

“My turn. What is your idea of a truly romantic evening?”

Tommy took a drink.


“Just sex?” she asked. “That’s not romantic.”

“You’re not allowed to question my answers,” he grinned and picked up a card.

He cleared his throat.

“If I promise not to get upset, can you tell me something that you’d like to change about me but don’t have the nerve to tell me?”

Brittany smiled.

“Nervous now?”

He shook his head.

“Nope. I’m perfect.”

She took a drink.

“Maybe you could tone down the arrogance?”

He grinned.

“You think it’s hot, come on.”

“No arguing the answers. Your turn,” she answered.

He took a card.

“Which three parts of my body are your personal favorites and why?”

She blushed.

“Seriously? We’ve been together for years, no blushing allowed,” he said and reached to stroke her cheek.

“Okay, so first and foremost, your chest. I think we know that.”

He laughed.


“Okay, so the other two would have to be your thighs and your hands.”

He raised his eyebrows.

“My thighs?”

“Yeah. When you are walking around and you have nothing on but your shorts, your thighs are just the sexiest things. I also love when we’re in the tub and my back is against your chest and I run my hands over your thighs. It’s incredibly erotic.”

He cleared his throat.

“Duly noted.”

She picked a card.

“Oh, this one is good. Apart from the most obvious one, which other two areas of your body are the most sensitive and responsive?”

He was quiet for a minute.

“My chest and I think under my arms.”

“Your armpits?” she asked.

“Yeah, I guess.”

“Good to know,” she said and winked at him. “Your turn.”

“Okay, a two part question again. What has been the best decision you ever made and what is the decision you regret the most?”

She took a drink.

“Best decision I ever made was letting you into my life. I think the one I regret the most is probably hiding after my attack.”

He reached out and squeezed her hand.

“I’m just saying. I should have done things differently.”

“I don’t agree, but that’s not the point of this interview.”

She leaned in and kissed him.

“Okay, my turn,” she said as she kissed him again and then picked a card.

“Your secret sexual fantasy has to be…”

He shook his head.

“Pick a different one.”

“No, I want to know,” she said and smiled.

He chewed on his lip.

“I would like to role play.”

She grinned.

“Really? As what?”

“I think that’s for after the interview.”

She blinked and he smiled.

“I promise, I’ll tell you. Now my question.”

She watched his face as he read the question and he frowned.

“What does it say?”

“It’s stupid.”

“Tommy, come on,” she smiled. “It’s okay.”

He sighed. “If our relationship doesn’t work out, do you think we can remain friends? If no, why not?”

She reached to his hand and took it.

“No way. If I couldn’t do this,” she ran her hands over his chest. “Or this,” she moved her hands to his thighs and ran her fingers over his muscles. “Or this,” she moved to kiss him aggressively. “Then I couldn’t be near you.”

He tried to calm his breathing and then smiled.

“So it’s all physical?”

She grinned.

“Right now it is,” she said.

“Can we be done with this?” he asked.

“Oh yes,” she smiled and he stood up, reaching for her.

“Happy anniversary my love,” she said softly.

“Happy anniversary,” he grinned as he gathered her in his arms. “Now onto that role playing idea.”

She laughed as he carried her to the bedroom.



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Who do you want next?

Who shall we interview next?

Tommy and Brittany?

Mike and Jade?

Evan and Elizabeth?

What type of questions? More intimate? More fun? More family oriented?

Hope the reading is going well 🙂


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Bill and Julie Kastan

Interviewer: Mr. and Mrs. Kastan, thank you so much for sitting down with me. Let’s get started, okay?

Bill: “Sure. What’s this for again?”

Julie looked at him.

“I told you, for a book. She already talked to David and Jack and Stephanie.”

Bill: Oh, right.”

Interviewer: “Let’s start with Julie. If your husband asked you to run away with him, what would be your reaction?”

Julie: “Yes, always yes. On one condition.”

Bill: “That there would be donuts?”

Julie: “That there would be donuts.”

They both laughed.

Interviewer: “Sergeant, what is the most attractive part of your wife’s face?”

Bill: “Just call me Bill, please, and I can’t answer that.”

Julie: “Sure you can.”

Bill: “Okay, um, I guess her mouth.”

Julie rolls her eyes: “So romantic.”

Bill: “What? I told you I can’t answer that because you’re the whole package. I love every part of your face.”

She blushed and he grinned.

Interviewer: “Julie, do you like it when someone stares at your husband?

Julie: “Like in a sexual way?”

Interviewer: “I think in any way that makes you uncomfortable.”

Bill looked at his wife.

Julie: “Well he always gets stares. He’s a beautiful and strong man. As long as the only person he’s looking at like that is me, then I don’t mind.”

Bill kissed her.


Interviewer: “Okay, let’s get a little more intimate.”

Bill: “Seriously?”

Julie: “Come on, just have fun.”

Interviewer: “Bill, do you like to have sex in the winter?”

Bill: “Of course. Do people actually say no?”

Julie laughed.

“I think because it’s cold.”

Bill: “What better way to warm up?”

Julie laughed again.

Interviewer: “Julie, do you like to read sex stories?”

Julie: “Of course. I am always looking for new ideas.”

Bill blushed.

Interviewer: “Keeping with that idea, Bill, what’s your weirdest sexual fantasy?”

Bill: “Define weird.”

Interviewer: “I guess anything you would feel a little strange about asking your wife to do.”

Julie faced him and waited.

Bill: “I don’t know. I love our sex life. I don’t think I’ve ever wanted to do something that she has said no to.”

Interviewer: “Okay, Julie, how about you?”

Julie: “I think we’re pretty adventurous. I can’t think of anything.”

Interviewer: “Bill, what was your first impression of your spouse?”

Bill: “She was someone I needed to talk to.”

Julie: “Really?”

Bill: “Yeah.”

Interviewer: “Julie, when and where was your first kiss?”

Julie: “After a date. It was like our third and he hadn’t touched me. I was frustrated and figured he wasn’t into me like I was to him. I walked out and he went after me and we had the most passionate first kiss ever.”

Interviewer: “Bill, when did you have your first fight and what was it about?”

Bill: “I think our first major fight was when I told her we were through because I was going to be leaving town. It lasted about an hour because I couldn’t stand being without her.”

Interviewer: “Julie: which one of you said, “I love you” first?

Julie: “He did, but I said it at the same time. He took me out for a walk just to tell me he loved me. I was in love with him from our first date, so I told him.”

Interviewer: Julie, do you make love as often as you would like?”

Julie: “Sometimes I worry when we go too long between nights. I don’t want him to ever feel like I’m not interested.”

Bill looked at her.

“You should never worry about that. I am completely satisfied.”

She blushed.

Interviewer: “Bill, how would you describe your spouse on your wedding night?”

Bill: “Gorgeous and amazing and sexy and my dream.”

Julie smiled.

“He’s such a charmer.”

Interviewer: “Julie, what do you find most physically attractive about your spouse?”

Julie: “His arms. He can hold me until all I hear is his heartbeat. He has immense power in his arms and he is the most tender man.”

Bill blushed.

Interviewer:  “This is for both of you. What does your partner wear to bed?”

Bill: “I used to wear nothing, but the kids have no respect for closed doors, so I always wear pajama bottoms.”

Julie laughed.

“We had an incident with the kids barging in, so it’s a sore spot. I wear a nightgown.”

Interviewer: “Julie, what grade would you give your spouse for their lovemaking?”

Bill: “That’s not fair. She’s a teacher. She grades for a living.”

Julie laughed.

“It’s very subjective, but I think he scores off the charts.”

Bill laughs.

Interviewer: “Julie, what do you admire the most about your husband?”

Julie: “His courage. He simply would do anything for his family and that, to me, is the most courageous thing. I don’t mean because he’s a soldier, but because he embodies courage in every single thing he does. He has been through things that would level the strongest of people and he gets up every day and continues to believe in the good all around the world. He is my hero.”

Bill wiped his eyes and blushed.


Julie: “It’s true.”

Interviewer: “Bill, is there anything you want your wife to know that you don’t think you’ve told her?”

Bill: “Just that she’s the kind of person I aspire to be. She is kind and brilliant and fiery and resourceful. She doesn’t do anything half way and I learn from her every day. She is the best mother to our children and she loves me through everything I’ve put her through. She is simply the best person I know.”

Interviewer: Thank you both so much for talking with me.

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