Heartbroken Preview #2

Okay, grab your tissues…Here is your next preview from Heartbroken. Please let me know what you think!

This is an edited chapter- Bill’s parts have been removed. You will have to wait to read about that… :(  (It will be worth it, I promise)

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Tommy and Jack walked into the room and looked at Julie. She lay on the bed, her body covered and the sheet over her head. Brittany stood behind and simply stared at them, too numb to move.

“How is she supposed to breathe when her face is covered,” Tommy said and uncovered the top of the sheet. He sat down on the side of the bed and smoothed her hair back.

“That’s better,” he said softly. “Now you need to wake up so we can go home.”

Jack went to the other side of the bed and sat down.

“It’s like when she didn’t want to go to school. She would pretend to be sleeping,” Tommy said and smiled. “I need you to wake up now.”

Brittany walked to them and crossed her arms around her middle, barely able to watch the scene.

“She suffered a traumatic aortic disruption and it completely tore away from the chest wall. There wasn’t time to do anything to save her.”

Tommy picked up his sister’s hand and held it as he spoke to her.

“Jack will fix you. He’s the best heart surgeon there is, so everything will be fine,” he turned and looked at Jack.

“You should go get ready. Do you want me to help?”

Jack didn’t move. He just sat there and stared at Julie.

Tommy ignored him and turned back to Julie.

“You feel cold. I’ll grab another blanket,” he got up and reached for a blanket, covering her and tucking it around her body.

“That’s better,” he said and smiled again. “How about if I just sit here with you until you feel better?”

Brittany walked over to him and sat down on the chair.

“Tommy, can you look at me for a minute?”

He didn’t move and she took a deep breath.

“I need for you to look at me.”

“You know, everyone says that I changed so drastically when our parents were killed, but because of you, I actually learned how to live,” he spoke to his sister. “When you looked at me with your big green 12 year old eyes, I saw my purpose. I knew that it was my honor to watch you grow up into the beautiful and amazing woman you are. I used to pretend that you needed me to help you, but in reality, you saved my life. I am so proud of you.”

Brittany touched his hand and he finally turned and looked at her.

“I didn’t see you come in,” he said. “Do you think you can help her wake up?”

Her tears spilled over her cheeks as she reached to touch his face.

“Baby, Julie passed away. She is gone.”.

He turned back to Julie and shook his head.

“Why isn’t anyone doing anything? Since when do we sit around and do nothing?”

Jack got up and went to walk out when Tommy stopped him.

“Why aren’t you prepping the OR? Why don’t you do anything?”

He stopped and faced Tommy.

“I need to go back to my wife.”

“You’re just going to leave us? After everything we’ve meant to you? You can just walk away when she needs help?” Tommy yelled at him.

Brittany didn’t know what to do to help him. She also worried about where her brother went.

“Julie is gone. I can’t help her,” Jack said tragically.

Tommy looked between them and turned back to his sister.

“I’ll do it myself. I don’t need you to act superior. I am a damn good surgeon and I’ll fix her myself,” he went back to Julie and began to grab some surgical equipment.

Jack looked at him and walked over.

“Stop it. You aren’t butchering her. She is dead,” Jack said.

Tommy smacked him across the face and then he shook his head.

“No,” he brokenly. “She can’t be.”

Jack shrugged and looked at his hands.

“We are all useless,” he said and walked out.

Brittany watched as her husband sank to the floor and she rushed to him, holding him as he finally realized the truth.

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Some news!

I will be sharing another preview of Heartbroken tonight as a kickoff to release month! Lots of fun stuff coming for the month of August leading up to the release of Heartbroken on August 28!

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Some fun

One of my favorite conversations to write happen between Bee and Jack. I love how she knows just how to get to him and the love he has for his daughter is so reminiscent of me and my dad. This excerpt is from “The Unthinkable”

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Jack walked into the mall carrying Bee and they made their way to the pizza place she loved because of the play area. He went to a booth and just as he put her next to him in a booster seat she smiled.

“Daddy peepee,” she said.

He sighed and stood up; thankful they had a private stall bathroom for families. He told the server they would be right back and he took her to go. She looked at the large toilet and held onto him.

“No daddy, don’t wanna. Bee fall.”

“It’s okay, little Bee. I’ll hold you,” he saw her eye the large bowl and her big brown eyes filled.

“I scared. Don’t wanna go.”

He didn’t know why, but he got choked up at her words.

“Daddy will help you,” he said. “Don’t you worry.”

She watched him as he pulled out some receiving blankets from the bag he brought and rolled them up, half covering the toilet. He positioned her on the seat and she kept a death grip on his arm.

“You can go now,” he said, not really happy about kneeling on the bathroom floor. His height made anything else sort of impossible.

“No, wanna go home,” she sniffed.

“How about we sing a little song?” he said as he kept his arm around her. “The itsy bitsy spider came up the water spout,” he started.

She put her fingers together to make the motion with her hands and almost fell in the bowl. Jack grinned and she held onto him tighter. “Down came the rain and washed the spider out. Out came the sun and dried up all the rain, so the itsy bitsy spider went up the spout again,” he smiled as he finally heard her tinkle.

“Thank God,” he muttered as he cleaned her up and washed her hands before scrubbing his own.

“Come on daddy,” she said and held his two fingers in her hand.

Jack followed her back to the booth and they sat down.

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After lunch, and after disinfecting her again from the gross play area, Jack took Bee to the toy store and looked at the stuffed animals.

“Would you like something?” he asked her as her eyes grew wide at the assortment in front of her.

“I want a bee,” she said as he put her down and she ran to a large stuffed bee. She picked it up and ran back to him. “Daddy want this,” she said and hugged the stuffed animal.

He looked at the price and couldn’t believe it, but he could deny her nothing.

“Okay, you can have it. Should we get one for Tessa while we’re here?”

“No,” she said without missing a beat.

“Are you sure? I think it would be nice if we brought her a present.”

Bee was quiet and Jack saw her eyeing a little boy across the aisle. He smiled as she wrapped her arm around his leg. “What’s wrong?” he asked. She reached her free hand up to him and he leaned over to pick her and her stuffed animal up.

“Why do you look so sad?” he smoothed her long brown hair back.

“I miss David,” she said.

Jack smiled and walked to the next aisle.

“Should we get David a present?”

“Yes!” Bee grinned.

“What should we get?” he asked her.

She thought about it and her dimples were deep and so cute.

“You have a beautiful daughter,” a woman with a young boy walked up to him.

“Thank you,” Jack beamed.

“Hi,” the little boy said to Sabrina.

Bee buried her face in Jack’s shoulder and he looked at her.

“Bee, that little boy said hello to you,” he saw her look at him.

“Hi,” she said shyly.

Jack grinned at the little boy.

“What’s your name?”

“Allan,” he said.

“It’s very nice to meet you Allan,” he smiled.

“I Bee,” she yelled.

“Bee flies,” Allan said and buzzed around them.

“Bee is an unusual name,” the mother said, moving closer to him.

“It’s Sabrina, but we call her Bee,” Jack said and began to get uncomfortable at the closeness of the woman. “It was nice meeting you, but we need to go. My wife is waiting,” he said and turned when Sabrina yelled again.

“Do you have a banana? David has banana and daddy has banana,” she grinned.

Jack turned red and shook his head. “Kids,” he said and they walked away.

“No daddy. We have to get David present,” she said.

He walked to the bin of stuffed animals again and put her down.

“Okay, go pick something out,” he said. She ran to the bin and brought back a doll. Jack laughed.

“Are you sure that is for David?”

“Yes daddy,” she said and handed it to him.

“Uncle Bill might not like that,” he said and realized he was being a sexist pig. Her face showed her confusion and he berated himself for bringing it up. “I think David will love it. Let’s pay and go home.”

“Okay. I pay,” she said and he handed her the money as they approached the cashier.

“Here is my number,” the woman who had come out of nowhere again said to him.

“I’m married,” he repeated, grossed out by her.

“I’m a psychologist. I think it might help your daughter to explore her issues with sexuality.”

Jack looked at her incredulously.

“My daughter doesn’t have any “issues”, she is two and a half. You should really mind your own business.”

“Mind your own business!” Bee screamed.

Jack put the change away and kissed his daughters cheek.

“I love that she speaks her mind. I am lucky to have her as a daughter and I hope she grows up with a healthy attitude and a positive self-image. Excuse us,” he said and took the doll for David and the stuffed bumblebee and smirked at the woman as they left. He loved everything about his spunky daughter and he would never again take a moment with his beautiful family for granted.

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News on Heartbroken

Heartbroken‘s release date has been moved up to August 28. I am doing something a little different with this one and having a release party on facebook. More information will be coming soon, but get excited! This one will knock your socks off.

 

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Fun party and giveaway!

Please stop by tomorrow at 1pm and enter a great giveaway! I will be featured during that time and would love to see you!
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Barbara and Nathan

I love writing flashbacks of Tommy and Jack and Julie growing up, and it’s one of the best ways I can show their bond. Some of the flashbacks I’ve shown that deal with Nathan and Barbara have been so fun to write. I know the character of Nathan very well and I feel like he hasn’t really been fully explored in the series. He was someone I developed in my mind from the beginning of the series and his love story with Bridget was something that- for him- was everything. This flashback was one of my favorites, and I hope you liked it too. It’s from book 11 “No Surrender”.

Are there any other flashbacks you would like to see of Barbara and her dad?

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Nate was cleaning the bar and getting ready for the night crowd before he was set to leave. Barbara was having some trouble lately, adjusting to middle school and he had asked for the night off to spend some time with her. He was about to punch out when he got a call from the back.

“Dude, your daughter is missing or something,” Mark the dishwasher called out.

Nate flew to the phone and the flush covered his body as his fear coursed through his veins. His hand clutched the receiver and his voice came out before he even realized he was speaking.

“Where is my daughter?”

The voice on the other end was clearly startled by the sound of fear from Nathan.

“Mr. Anthony, Barbara didn’t show up to her last class. There was an argument in the lunchroom and her classroom teacher reported that she didn’t return after.”

“What do you mean? Is she missing? Did she leave the building?”

“We are trying to locate her,” the voice said.

“Nate, Barb’s on the phone,” the dishwasher called out.

Relief coursed through his body as he ended the call with the school and clicked the line for his daughter.

“Barbie? Baby are you okay?”

“Are you mad at me?” her shaking voice came through and he could hear her tears.

“Of course not,” he said, just wanting her safe. He would have a discussion in person about her leaving. “Where are you? I’ll come and get you.”

“No daddy, you have to work,” she sniffed.

“Barbara Rose, where are you?”

“I’m at school. I hid when they did a hall sweep and then I ran into Mr. Price’s room when he went to the bathroom. That’s how I got to call you. Am I gonna be in trouble?” Her trembling voice broke his heart. He hated to hear her cry. She rarely did.

“I’m on my way. Why don’t you wait in the Principals office and I’ll explain to them when I get there.”

“Okay. I love you daddy,” she sniffed again.

“I love you, too.”

Nate hung up and shook his head. He was working too hard and he didn’t spend enough time with her. He knew she had been upset about something and he didn’t push her on it. Barbara never complained and she went along with everything he threw at her. None of this was fair. She deserved better.

He made his way to the school and walked into the office. His eyes went wide as he saw her.

“Barb, what did you do to your hair?” he walked to her and saw the black paint on the side of her head.

She shrugged and he knew she wanted to leave. He signed her out and they went to his car. He drove them home to the small apartment where they lived and Barbara walked into the family room and sat on the couch.

Nate grabbed some juice for her and walked in to sit next to his 11 year old daughter. He handed her the juice and touched her hair.

“What is this? Paint?”

“Shoe polish,” she said softly.

He sighed as he looked at his beautiful daughter.

“Why do you want to change your hair?”

“Because it makes me so different.”

“But being a little different isn’t a bad thing. You are special and I adore your hair.”

“I am already so different, daddy, I just want to fit in more.”

Nate ran his hand over his face and tried to figure her out. He was only 28 years old and he was struggling with the issues his daughter faced. He was way out of his comfort zone, but he would do anything to help her.

“What do you mean? Why are you so different?”

She looked up at him and her ocean colored eyes pierced through him.

“Why didn’t my mom want me?”

Shit.

“Why would you think she didn’t want you?”

“She isn’t here. Everyone has a mom and a dad or at least a mom. I’m the only one with just a dad.”

Nathan felt her words with all the weight of her sadness. He always worried if he would be enough for her. So much had happened that she didn’t and couldn’t know about. Bridget was a full blown alcoholic and her husband Chris was downright evil. Nate felt terrible that he wasn’t able to let Barb spend time with William, but he couldn’t allow his daughter around them. Recently, Chris’s friend Doug had been hanging around and he paid a few visits to Nate at work. He made some inappropriate comments about Barb and Nate had punched him. He was lucky he didn’t get fired, but his boss treated Barb like she was one of his own kids and he had Nate’s back.

“Your mom loved you, Barbie. She carried you for nine months and then she made the most amazing decision. She gave me the best, most important gift when she left you with me.”

“I don’t think that’s true. I think she knew there was something wrong with me. We learned in science that in the wild, when animals know something is wrong with their babies they leave them to die. Maybe that’s what my mom did. Maybe she knew I was a loser,” the sad preteen cried.

Nate was at a loss.

“Can I tell you something?” he wiped her tears away and smoothed her sticky hair.

She listened to him as she wiped her nose with the back of her hand.

“When I was seventeen and I met your mom, I thought we would be together forever. I loved her completely and even though we were young, it was clear to me that she was the one.”

Barbie was enthralled. He never spoke of her mom.

“What happened?”

He shrugged. “Sometimes life takes turns we don’t see coming. It’s like when we sing together and a chord comes up that you haven’t played before. Sometimes, when you try that new chord, the most amazing music is created. With your mom and me, we played the same chord for too long and it finally was out of tune. She found someone else and I was lost for a long time.”

Barbie’s eyes were swimming.

“What did you do?”

“She gave you to me and I found my chord. I found my purpose and it was to give you the best life. You make me so happy and so proud. You are the best and most important person in the world to me and I know our family doesn’t look like everyone else’s, but that’s what makes us special. We play music no else can make. We are a family, Barbie, and that’s the most important thing.”

She crawled into his lap and hugged him.

“I’m sorry daddy,” she cried.

He rocked her and sang softly.

You are my sunshine

My only sunshine

You make me happy when skies are gray

You never know dear

How much I love you

So please don’t take my sunshine away.

 

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So Sorry!

Sorry to have been MIA for a few. My little pup had major surgery and I have been in nurse mode for the last week. I have some exciting news coming up with the release of Perfectly Imperfect and I will be featured in a couple of author parties on Facebook! I will get the info out in the next day or so!

Thanks for sticking with me :)

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Questions?

Okay, what questions would you like to ask Tommy and Jack, Stephanie and Brittany, or Bill and Mike?

let me know and they will be coming soon!

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Yay for interviews!

I’ll change it up- who would you like to see interviewed together?

Tommy and Bill?

Julie and Stephanie?

Brittany and Jack?

Any others?

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Evan and Elizabeth interview

1. What was the first thing that attracted you to Elizabeth?

Evan: Well, I was 6 when we met, but I think it was probably her attitude. All of the other girls were so passive and Lizzie never took crap from anyone. She always said what she felt and no matter what, I knew I was getting the truth from her. Honesty is incredibly sexy.

Elizabeth: I wasn’t always honest. I waited until you told me you liked me for me to act on it. I was in love with you for years before that and never said anything.

Evan blushed and leaned in to kiss her softly.

2. If you were in love with him for so long, why not act on it?

Elizabeth: He was my brother’s best friend. I felt it was breaking a code or something.

Evan laughs

Evan: It was Jason who finally pushed us together.

3. Speaking of Jason, what was it like growing up as a twin?

Elizabeth: The best and the worst. (she laughs). I adore my brother, but he has always been the best at everything. He is gorgeous, so that meant all my friends wanted to meet him. He’s famous, so that meant the whole world wanted to meet him. And he was best friends with the one man I adored, so that was an issue.

She smiled.

Elizabeth: But it has been the best having Jason as my brother. He is such a kind and caring man and he has always had my back. Growing up, we did everything together and I tried my best to emulate him. I miss him being so far away, but I know he is only a phone call away.

4. So both of you have very specific interests. What made you become a bodyguard and a pilot?

Evan: I guess I always wanted to be a protector. I never felt comfortable in the spotlight, and being with Jason, we were always surrounded. I found it was important to me to make sure he was safe and then I realized that it was important for so many of us to be able to feel that way. I just wanted to help other people feel safe and now, looking at Brittany and Tommy and Naomi I feel like I have really found a purpose.

Elizabeth: I love flying. There is nothing like the feeling of soaring above the clouds and seeing the beauty of the world around us. I also became really determined when I found out how difficult it was for a woman to be a pilot. I had to work so hard just to be considered on equal footing and that made me love it even more.

5. Evan is always such a stoic person. When is he the most romantic?

Evan rolled his eyes and looked at Elizabeth.

Evan: You don’t have to answer that. You probably can’t.

Elizabeth: When he holds me at night and makes me feel like I’m the most beautiful woman in the world. When he comforts me and dances with me and shows me a part of himself that nobody else sees.

Evan felt his eyes grow wet with her words and he held her hand in his.

Evan: I love you so much.

Elizabeth: I love you, too.

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